appointment........

so tomorrow is my appointment with my psychiatrist....and my dad is coming with.....i kinda wish t was earlier than 4 in the afternoon........strangely i'm not over anxious.....i mean, yeah, i'm nervous but not to the point to where i wanna cut or kill myself or anything......my therapist said i need to have skills ready to use especially when the three of us talk and after we talk......like in the car ride home i think my dad will read me the riot act.....so i just gotta have skills handy....i wonder what car we will take.......if we take HIS car it'll mean that he'll be able to read me the riot act.....if we take MY car and I drive, i'll tell him that we can't really talk about it on the ride home and he'll be pissed off.....i'm basically preapring myself for the worst and expecting the worst....i keep on wonering how my parents will react to my psychiatrist....the really like her becasue she tells it like it is.....they like her because she ususally agrees with them and helps talk some sense into me.....we'll see if that shifts when she tells my dad that once a month therapy won't work....she's disagreeing with my parents there.......AND i also wonder if my dad will just sit there nodding and then he'll talk to my mom and then they'll still decide to cut it down.....**sigh**    just want this to go the way i want it to!!!