valgal18
Status: other grandma in hospital and grandpa just passed away
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i had therapy yesterday and OF COURSE that helped me......i amy not have been raped three times......it's kind of hard ot explain......i love my therapy sessions and i love my therapist.....she's...
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so i've done pretty well so far.....i still blmae myself for most of it, but i thought i should update my goal since a part of me is getting close to understand it's not my fault....
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so my therapist was sick of wednesday, and she cancelled our appointment.....i went to see a school counselor yesterday to talk about how i feel and what happened.....she was really nice but she kind...
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i posted a question about an incident and if was rape or not......yeah, it was rape....i feel so stupid!!!!!!!!!! that's the THIRD time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel sooooooooo...
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i was thinking of my ex-boyfriend this morning.....he never really abused me, but he broke up with me after 2 years because he's gay.....but i remembered all the good times we had together....the...
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i wanna cut right now.....i told my mom and she told me to take a medication i have for crisis so i did.....still feeling the urge to do it.....i think i will tomorrow.....but before i do, i'll call...
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i feel so selfish......my aunt had surgery and my mom asked my uncle-her husband-if he wanted s to take their kids for the weekend...and they accepted so they're staying...and i just wanna soend time...
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i keep having memories of one of my abusers today.....i keep having flashes of what happened.....when he kept pulling my hair, when he flung me on the bed....just the abuse....he never raped me, but...
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kinda frustrated......the house should go on the market soon......my mom told me that next weekend she's gonna visit my dad.....i have a choice....i can either stay here or go to a realtives'...
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SCARY dream last night.....no idea what triggered it.....no one that i recognized that was in it, but i remember i was raped in it.....didn't watch anything that had to do with abuse or...
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i was walking out of the science building today after class and i slipped on ice and feel right on my knee!!!!!!!!!! i kinda stopped and a woman saw me and asked if i was okay and i nodded and tried...
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i've been having flashbacks all day......kinda upset about that......the worse thing though, is that i get these flashes....like about m rape in january since it's january now.....like i barely...
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MAJOR headache!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it hurts like a mother fucker!!!!!!!!! i feel like i have a big huge purple bruise and someone is constantly pushing on it.....that's the best that i can describe...
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feeling pretty good.....had a few suicidal thoughts this weekend.....but i recognized that i was thinking irrationally and that i was catastrophising so i was okay.....i just had a good cry and then...
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we read this really good essay in the inpatient program at the hospital....we all read it out loud and then we spent some time underlying/highlighting things that stood out to us and then went around...
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