strength..........

so yesterday when my mom came home she asked,"so what does ******/your therapist think about you switching ot once a month??" and i said,"she's gonna talk to dr. ********/my psychiatrsit and we'll see what she says..." my mom looked at me and said,"well, val, it's not really an option....." "she'll talk to dr. ******** and we'll see what she says..." "it's not that i don't want you to go, it';s just that we can't afford it..." "okay..well she's gonna talk to dr. ******** and we'll see what she says..." i had this HUGE urge to just break down and tell my mom that it's not an option or call off the whole thing and just give up but ya know what??? this is MY treatment and i DO get a say.......i am worthy of getting the treatment that i want, deserve and need.......i'm ready to stand up for myself and to get the treatment that i deserve......i am ready to tell my parents what i need and what i want......all this strength is brewing inside me and i haven't felt this way in years...literally.....i can't remember the last time i said that i would stand up for myself....i have done that lately with some guys that i had flings with.....and that's been in the past two weeks.....i just hope this strength doesn't go away by the 20th.......i am worthy or recieving the treatment that i deserve, need and want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!