I realize that sounds crazy. I shut the world out but want someone to be around. My world is full of busy bodies who don’t even see me. I go to church, support group, work and counseling. All that is so serious. All those people are in their serious mindset when I see them. There is no fun in my life. Please do not accuse me of making myself invisible. If you can’t say anything nice don’t say anything at all. Some people jump off of buildings when they’re misunderstood.

I spoke in front of a church group yesterday and got choked up even though the topic wasn't PTSD related. That wasn't the place for me to find who I need to talk to. I had already talked to my psychiatrist in my appointment this week. So now I posted a crisis thread here today. Let's hope this is the place for folks like us to find someone to talk to, Marah. Truly. You're not alone.

Marah, many years ago, I would wait to be invited. I went to meetings, and knew some of the ladies had a meeting after the meeting to go for coffee and dessert, so I felt excluded. One time, I mustered my courage and simply asked if it would be OK for me to join them. The response was: of course, the more the merrier, which led to some friendships. Children make friends at playgrounds. Be open to talking to other parents, perhaps to set up play dates. We all need some time off from the serious; we all need some fun times with other adults. Consider introducing yourself to some neighbors. These were all hard steps for me, but worth the effort. I wasn't looking to be invisible either, just hadn't reached out. Comforting hugs.