I feel like I’ve just run a marathon without training.....never have I ever had to bathe my oldest at 2am wondering if I’d be on my way to the ER. Her temp was above 104 a few times. Then an allergic reaction to meds and so much benedryl, all while I’m also not feeling well and experiencing triggers regularly. Staying home all day is hard. Tomorrow may be our last day at home. It depends on how the rash looks end of day. It keeps getting worse as benedryl wears off. I’m not sure what tomorrow looks like but I’m fairly certain the safest thing for me to do tonight is “go to bed.” 

I need to be left alone. They’re at Bible study. Kids will be asleep soon. I will clean up and head to bed myself. I’m ready for our routine to return but it won’t. Thanksgiving is Thursday. I’m thankful for so much, but I don’t want to spend Thanksgiving here. I told my parents today I’m going to be working (deliveries for door dash and postmates) since I’ve missed so so so much work for munchkin 2. She said ok but I don’t think she understands. Soon to be ex has the kids. I’m going to request having them Christmas. He wanted them Thurs-Saturday instead of his usual Friday/Saturday. He can have them the weekend before Xmas and I’ll take the actual holidays Monday and Tuesday. That’s how this works right - we will eventually be alternating holidays?