Seems to my senses that the most important things in Life live beyond words.

I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough.

Steadying support while you ride out the storm. Marah. That's ALLOT to sort. Easy does it, Cap'n. Itsy, bitsy baby steps. Sort freely. Sort often.

Wow, that dream was a doozie, Marah! You don't have to fake it, in fact when I'm overwhelmed with all of the demands on me that seem to be absolute because I, just speaking for myself, was groomed in an abusive home to be a people pleaser, I do what my therapist suggested. I back off and go at life's demands from the other end, from the bare minimum.

I start my list with the fact that I need to breathe both in and out, Then I need to take in sustenance and eliminate its waste, I need regular sleep, and not much else. Everything after that is pretty much optional and I have the right to say no any of it as I see fit. Every time I do that it works like my therapist said it would. I feel empowered.

Say no all you need to, Marah. Take good care of number one.

Thanks. I’m focused on staying present but I need to remember that’s a goal and I deserve grace if I’m not quite there yet or always. Today may be hard. I’ll be okay, whatever that looks like.

A lot of my nightmares are being held hostage, humiliated, etc.

There's a thing where you active dream...or try to change the dreams as you have them. Works...somewhat for me. Often I find myself doing grounding exercises in my dreams. Weird yes, but...well. For a time, when the kids were younger, they were in a competition to tell me what I was saying in my sleep.

Anyway...nightmares suck. I wish I had the answers. I wish I had any answer. Anyway, big hugs.