mahalarose

The worst time is when I am sort of asleep and my brain is all -_- I know don't know what I think when I do it anymore. last ngiht I cut again and the night before that, the fact that I had an...

I cut again last night. I seem to want to do it when all my othershave healed completley then I my skin lets me make more marks. last night was only one cut..I thought so myself..I wonder what the...

I'm so angry with myself. I've got the morning off school because I told mom I feel blocked up. Anyway, I really need some help..What I done was had a shower and looked at my chest..I hate them. I...

..Ight I've been sick for ages..It's this scratched up throat without the coughing, but today the coughing started. I hate all this feeling, I feel so weak..not because im sick either..at least I...

Great. I have cellulitus in my thigh again. It's in the same place when my skirt pocket zip is and I think my keys digging into my cuts have made the cellulitus worse. It's throbbing and so sore to...

My Parents told me they are worried about me. I've had such a bad two days. I went to my old english teacher to check if she still had my exam papers and she asked "so how is english this year?" and...

I don't fit at home. I don't fit at school. I don't fit in with my friends. I have been so wrong about everything. I keep staring into blankness, Like when we get changed for p.e in the changing...

I feel so completley low. I wish I haddn't eaten because it's just churning in my stomach making me feel sick. My Grandad has died..Now my Dad's moods are even more unpredictable and I'm scared he'll...

three meals in three days. I've given up milk now (much to my mothers dissaproval) sigh.. It makes me puke anyway and I now have soy milk. It's quite nice I think. Anyways i'm 62 now.

Aparantly Vicky is "concerned" about me. when my friend asked her if Vicky had seen me around she said "no, Haven't seen Mahala all day" That is fucking lies. I saw Vicky twice and each time she...

I relapsed onto the glue. But only one tube. Been doing alright thought, lots of appointments. I stopped taking my pills and had nightmares last night. A girl i was getting to know rejected me, she...

I picked up my 'tickets' today! very exciting and I am going to buy my suitcase tomorow. I am very scared of being fat even though I know I am. Ive been refered to the eating disorders place in...

I told my two friends that I might be pregnant and they replies.."well uhhhm actually same"so yesterday we brought tests and none of us is pegnant. Thankgod. I was a nervous wreck. I feel so...

I might be pregnant. He told me it was safe and he knew when to withdraw. but theres always a but because Ive been talking to another guy friend about what happened. I only had sex with the guy to...

I havn't written in here much..Uhm so I went to my doctor on the friday just been because I was loosing control again, she got my hospital appointment moved forward to monday. It is monday now and...