mahalarose

This is all getting way too hard. after gymnastics last night (around 9) I went for a drive in the dark..and ended up on this windy hill that looks over the whole of upper hutt. It was so pretty with...

I feel totally whacked out..like..I don't remeber half of my days now because im so asleep..its kinda like a permanent thing..um today I had a drink of fanta, two apples and some bread..Its not that...

I wish I was able to know what was going to happen before everyone else. I wish I could know when my dad would snap and the monster owuld take over. then I'd run away and come back when everything...

ight..I never felt so alone as now. Ive been strggling with my book for ages now and no one else can help me with it but I wish someone would tell me how to run my own life. and do it all forme and I...

I haven't wrote in ages..Iunno..I been so busyIt feels as if my body is breaking. Like inside my head I'm all mixed up and broken..but now it feels like my body is falling away when I walk. I've...

I really want Ryan to hold me..We've been friends for like over a year and I know him really well and I trust him more than ever. He has already said that he loves me in that way but I already know...

I am constantly on my feet and I've been loosing weight without even trying. I haven't had time for an actual meal in about a week..My parents are always out and I forget to eat. I work nights too so...

Okay so I've had so many shutdowns..I thought I could take them but woah...I have cellulitus in my calf and went to the docs yeastersay and she said "Oh Mahala you've grown tall" (hinting at my...

My biology teacher sent home a letter to the whole class saying how our last assesment wasn't handed in on time and that this next assesment on IVF was going to have weekly checks to see how we are...

Monday was alright. It went so fast cos I was so sleepy. then on monday night (last night) I speant until 9 doing 4 subject's homework. The teachers were saying thet they wouldnt let me do the up...

Hmm so today I got up at 6 and went to work for 7.30 I got ot walk around a bit more today which was good because ym feet didn't get as sore. I went to see my Grandad and I said to him how I was...

13 hours of work in the next two days. I am so dizzy at school and I'm wobbling all over the place and my eyes feel so heavy in class. I am getting sick too. I havn't had time to go and see my...

Woah I've been so busy. I was falling asleep at gymnastics last night and was wobling everywhere. I didn't eat breakfast but thought I'd just get something to eat in between school and work..I...

I avoided going home after school..I went into the shops and had a look. I ended up buying some chocolate and ate it. I didn't want to go home incase Sally was lying dead. I'm not blaming her for...

I feel uselesss. Vicky has now got a boyfriend. I feel like just crying but I am so exhuasted from work. School tomorow. Huge sigh.