mahalarose

It's as if my heart is floating..I'll explain..I gave vicky two of my poems to read, both were abotu her and saying basically how much I need her to come back to meand she did! Suddenly I was...

Are you really here or am I dreamingI can’t tell dreams from truthfor it’s been so long since I have seen youI can hardly remember your face anymore When I get really lonelyand the distance...

zero progress still. For ages I've aslways been dead on 65 ;(

I feel as if she has taken my heart and rougly thrown it away. I can't think or anything. she came online for the first time in Hmm about fucking 4 weeks and ignored me!  I am a fool for being her...

I think that my new years resolution is to make things better with Vicky. Mainly to see that she is happy..even if I may not be. I'm willing to do anything for her and if she wnats me to dissapear...

I had such a great day today. I painted another two rooms..the day seemed to fly past but I was breathing in so much paint fumes and filelr dust. then there was some stick stuff on one of the doors...

I still can't seem to shake off this low feeling. I've been so tired because we are decorating and getting the rental house ready for the next tennants. yesterday I put a new layer of gravel on the...

I sent Vicky a message a while ago saying "Are you avoiding me on purpose? If you are than I really don't know what to say.." and I saw that today I have a reply. I am still shaking. she replied "No...

I think I am going fucking mad.Vicky hasn't spoke to me in Hmm 4/5 weeks..she hasnt been online, hasn't responded to my daily txts. I don't know where she lives exactly, I don't know her number....

I have nothing to say cept that I am still here.

My freaking Dad. phew. he is a hypocrite. he is an angry immature selfish father and I don't want him to be my Dad. He keeps winding me up and pushing me that bit further. like If I'm driving and...

 My mom (infront of family) patted my stomach and said I am getting fat. MY bmi doesnt say that im over weight, my bmi is in the normal range for my height and weight. she doesnt even know that I...

Hmm well I will write this for Rennick so that he has somthing to read :D What have I been up to..? nothing..LOl My exams are over at last and now it is just the dreded month waiting for my results....

My self esteem has plumeted. I am gaining weight but thats not why. I have been trying to get a freaking job for ages now.first I applied at the rest home wher I had previously done a weeks work...

when my friend pointed out that I don't eat much..she was getting onto the fact that I am so big for the amount that I eat. I don't understand it and I want to know why. today I had a combined...