I don't fit at home. I don't fit at school. I don't fit in with my friends. I have been so wrong about everything. I keep staring into blankness, Like when we get changed for p.e in the changing rooms I stare at the wall because I know the other girls are ready to say how much of a pervert I am if I look somewhere else. I stare at the floor or desk in class. I stare at my feet when I walk. I just want to be not noticed for one day. It feels like I have no energy because I am always dizzy and weak. I hate the way my life is at the moment. I know I should be acting happy and just be positive but it's so hard now. Ever since I was truley happy and I've fallen I know what it is like and I know that I have fallen so much. I havn't been able to write much, to sleep either. I think I can manage all this mind chaos as long as I stay busy.