I feel so completley low. I wish I haddn't eaten because it's just churning in my stomach making me feel sick. My Grandad has died..Now my Dad's moods are even more unpredictable and I'm scared he'll loose it again and dI'll be at his angers end.I can't sleep. Can't drive. Can't even smile. I've just wrote a poem though..about Vicky..It all hurts too freaking much.