My Parents told me they are worried about me. I've had such a bad two days. I went to my old english teacher to check if she still had my exam papers and she asked "so how is english this year?" and I just broke down infront of her and had to sit down. I'm in a fucking pathetic english class, the teacher makes us "silent read" for 15 minutes and in three weeks we have only had to write down stuff twice. the final straw for me was yesterday it was "folder check day" (we get a tick if we have our ring binder folders with a series of perfectly set out and labbled deviders) S of course I knew she wouldn't give me a tick because I use a book and write in it. I came first in english last year and that is the way I like taking notes and obviously it worked. I don't see why she should waste 15 minutes of class time making us read AND then half an hour checking everyones folders. fucks sake I am year 12 I should know how I learn best by now. So when she saw that I don;t have a gfolder she asked where all my sections for various english topics are..I was like I don't understand..how can you devide a book..? she said well I have a folder you can use at home..(she got embarrased because she wasn't sure if I could afford one) And I held back the tears because I was tryingmy best to just go with what she says and how she teaches before the folder event but that was the last thing I could take. So in my old english teachers class I was still crying and I got out my english book and she agreed that I should be able to write on a book as obviously it had worked for me in the past years. She was horrified to find out what little stuff we had done in three weeks and as the head of english she took my book and her concerns to one of the top people in the school. VICTORY . She is going to sit in on one of my english classes and see what is going on. Also she has told my english tearcher that I shouldnt have to use a folder as it's not how I work best. Seriously english is one of my passions and for like 4 years I've come first in my classes. Because of my english teacher now I am really going to fail because she has just really killed english for me. Ugh.

My parents are concerned for me also because yesterday my contacts had been cutting into my eye and were all blood shot and I had to drive home practically blind holding my eye lids open so I could see. I meant to just lie down for a bit but ended up just letting myself fall asleep. I was asleep at about 6pm and today I woke up at 7am. AND I am still tired. It's athletics at school today and I might just do my javalin (my favourite) and go home. nobody really notices. Hmm so I am really fed up with english and school. I don't want to go back (legally I don't have to even do this year) I don't want to but I know that my life will just go more downhill if I have nothing to do except a job. I think I'll see how things go.