mahalarose

hmmm I just weighed myself...I've gained about 5 kgs in 3 weeks..fun. I actually don't care about it either..whats wrong with me!? I always care about everything..not I dont. :(

I feel like I am gunna die.30 minutes ago I was thinking of vicky and I was so happy then now Im just nothing, compettly numb.but very angry. these mood swings seem to be changing so much faster. I...

Mahala is falling.

well I don't know if I have mentioned this..but there's this girl called Vicky and she is amazing! she has a mohawk most days and is really outrageous in terms of fashion and her ways just are so...

I miss Harry. And at chool I have been carrying round a rubber band on my left wrist so I can snap it anytime I want. it feels worse than a cut would but it leaves no scar or blood which is good. I...

hmm well I got to school a couple of days ago and brought a block of chocolate when my friends wernt around and ate it all within one class and thern brouht more and ate that and then brought...

I am feeling horrible because everything is spinning out of control, worse than before..I didn't even know that was possible. I'm sick of hruting and I am sick of not knowing what to expect each day....

They out her down

My best friend, Harry is dying. SHe is a chicken and has been my best friend ever since I rescued her

Gah, I eat what six people would eat, It's out of control again. But it's making me feel better...I know it shouldn't..but there has been no cutting. Ive started to read when I feel angry..then...

k, i think mom knows im gay.what happened was that we were watching tv and an add for the movie "monster" (lesbian movie) came on..Its gunna be showing on tv sometime soon. so mom says " oh have ...

Um so my friend has forcingly invitedme around fora borthday party with cake and food! and meat! ugh i'm so scared. I couldnt even say no. Im such a whimp. um then she says we are going swimming..I...

I haven't written in a while, not just in here but poems either. I haven't been feeling myself. Diddn't go to canoe polo last night. Haven't been out of the house for a while either. I just don't...

im scared. all hell is gunna break loose when dad gets home..mom crashed his car today..shit im scared.

i feel discusted by myself. ew im so yuck, imso angry at myself. im so angry at my mom too but god, im angry at myself. i ate some mozerella cheese she brought and ew just out of curiosity read the...