mahalarose

I relapsed onto the glue. But only one tube. Been doing alright thought, lots of appointments. I stopped taking my pills and had nightmares last night. A girl i was getting to know rejected me, she...

I picked up my 'tickets' today! very exciting and I am going to buy my suitcase tomorow. I am very scared of being fat even though I know I am. Ive been refered to the eating disorders place in...

I told my two friends that I might be pregnant and they replies.."well uhhhm actually same"so yesterday we brought tests and none of us is pegnant. Thankgod. I was a nervous wreck. I feel so...

I might be pregnant. He told me it was safe and he knew when to withdraw. but theres always a but because Ive been talking to another guy friend about what happened. I only had sex with the guy to...

I havn't written in here much..Uhm so I went to my doctor on the friday just been because I was loosing control again, she got my hospital appointment moved forward to monday. It is monday now and...

I need a new lifestyle. A new way of thinking. I need a new fucking room and a new life while I am at it. A couple of nights everything has snuck up on me all at once and I didn't knw how to get...

I've been writing in my journal obsesively. I carry it everywhere with me now. Last night was my balllll it was alright, lots of laughing and dancing. Apart from that everything else is the same...

I want to crawl up and die. I don't care that people say beat this by being active etc. I was depressed before and so I got out of my room, worked more hours went to school regularily and stopped...

Omg so I purged and I now have eye jelly coming out underneath my eye. I didn't have to use my fingers! I was glad about that. I ditched school today. My ball dress came! I look like a whale in it. ...

So aparantly me now being vegan is the most upsetting thing ever, My parents didn't like theidea but I don't care. I am going to wellington today with 2 of my friends, were gunna get stoned alllll...

Ive changed my gw to 110lbs. I just ate like 5 people worth of pasta, omg, but its out of my stomach now. Im so scared that some more is left in there. Rick and I figured out that all my life I have...

I have realised how out of control I have once again let things become. I have realised that I don't know how to get everything back to where I was happy to be. I have realised that I am still a...

I am feeling very low. My car broke down on the way home. I then decided I would have a tomato sandwich and ended up cutting the tipp of my finger off, it still bleeding. I cried and then when I was...

I am feeling amazing. I have been keeping occupied and bascically just not stopping. I do make sure I get at east 10 hours sleep each night and I am taking vitiman pills and woah what a difference. I...

I saw rick about two hours and we talked about the diffence between isolation and independence...MY GRIPS CAME TODAY!!!  I had to go pick them up cos the post man didnt want to leave them with no...