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The worst is over and i am so glad.Brad has been deceased now for 6 years and i wish that things were so different......but Brad chose to end his life and I have chosen to live it.Life to me is Gods...

It will be 6 years that I lost my Brad and I am done crying.I have given away his clothes and all of his old shoes.I have got no use for them.All I have is memories and that is plenty for me.Remember...

To everyone I am done crying.The mourning is over and i feel so much better.I realize that Brad was not in his right mind and I do miss him.However,missing a person and grief are two different...

This is an update of my journal.I am done crying.It will be 6 years and I have learned to love myself and do things for myself.I cannot mourn anymore.I was with Brad for 13 years and he was the love...

It is friday January 2nd,2015.I am in the library typing this journal.I begin a  new life in just about 10 days and I am very excited.I mourned Brad for 5 years.My life was on hold.I went out and...

There is a great book out that I have read and it is called I have done crying.It is all about a womans struggle and it is fantastic.I do not know if it is in existence today but it has helped me and...

The period of mourning that I have had is over.It has been 5 years and now it is over.I have to life.I have to experience life and this is what I have been doing.It is only the summer..but i have...

The mourning is all over.I am no longer in pain.I feel that Brad is in a better place and I know that he and I will be reunited soon.He had his good points a nd this is what I know....I loved him...

Next Thursday it will be 5 years that my Bradley had died.It was a very gruesome scene.Brad and I were having problems like most couples do..but why did he take his life? I feel bad about it...

On May 22nd,2014..it will be 5 years that I lost Brad.It has been a rough 5 years and I am still struggling.Can anyone tell me what do I do now? What is next? Al I have been doing has been...

Friends are suppose to help you and guide you sometimes.But sometimes they are so overwhelming with things in their lives they can not give you the proper guidance.I had to end friendships.It was a...

on May 22nd,it will be 5 years that I lost Brad.And if it wasnt for the wonderful people of this support system I wouldnt have been able to survive.Daily Strength is that.I wasnt expecting Brad to...

The other day i bumped into someone who knew Brad.As usual,his friends asked about him and when I told him that Brad was dead..he did not believe me.It has been 5 years.It will be 5 years on the 22nd...

tThe mourning is almost over.In May,it will be 5 years and I am trying to regain my life and believe me...it is so hard.I have lost a great deal of people since 1995 and the one that meant the most...

I am starting over again at 66 and believe me it is not like the movies.It is a long hard road and since i dont travel in the right circles..I dont know the proper people who can help me as of...