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The other day i bumped into someone who knew Brad.As usual,his friends asked about him and when I told him that Brad was dead..he did not believe me.It has been 5 years.It will be 5 years on the 22nd of May and I am gratefully approaching that date.You see I cant put it out of my mind and I do not sleep anymore.I toss and turn all night.I am trying to live my life and believe me it is hard.YOu see,Brad committed suicide and this subject is a no-no.Noone wants to talk about it.I do.I have to let the pain out.I have to scream and cry....you see there isnt anywhere I can go and this pain is killing  me.I always ask why me? So far i havent gotten any answers.Can anyone one help me? The grief sessions are poor.They are not helping me and I feel so bad half of the time that I cannot work anymore.