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On May 22nd,2010 brad was dead for one year.ANd what a year it was! It was one oftrying to keep the house together and I almost lost my cats.Kramer was Brads favorite cat and Kramer was looking for...

Brads sister is not speaking to me all because she wanted to know why she wasnt contacted.First of all she lives almost two hours away and Brad told me on various occassions if anything does...

Brad will be dead for one year on May 22nd.And it has been a tough year for me becausei am finding out stuff about him that has broken my heart.He wasnt the nice guy that Ipretended that he was.He...

There was a song in the 1960s...it was called rambling rose.This journal will sound rambling and I hope that things will work out.I have got the funds for april and i still have money left over.Out...

Guess what? I got the funds for the April rent and I have been working.I am a mystery shopper and i have got several assignments this week.Some of them donot pay much and that is a shame,but i am in...

I finally made it March.I paid the rent.I dont have any more funds left and i am running out of options.I miss Brad and i dont know why he did this to me.I feel naked and I feel alone and I feel like...

On 2/18/2010..Brad would have been 50 and it was a a good day for me.I arose and i cried over the fact that this is his first birthday without a celebration.I was waiting for a message from stanley...

tomorrow is2/18 and it woul d have been brads 50 th birthday.He is not here to help me celebrate and in fact this is the first birthday without him.Brad was strange when it came to holidays and...

On May 22,2009 I awoke from my two hour sleep to find the nude body of my boyfriend on the grass in our back yard.He killed himself and i held him in my arms.He died in my arms,just like my sainted...

what next about greiving? Does anyone know? Does anyone have got any help or suggestions? I dont know what to do next.I am out of work and i still plug away almost everyday.I have put in 8...

After the shock of losing Brad and the lost of his financial support,and I am in mourning...what do i do now?I mean..how do I act? What do I say? I am in a big awe.Brads death has really hurt me.And...

The lonelines of 8 months just never ends and every day i wonder why.Why did my Brad kill himself? Why? This question I am playing over and over.I have been busy looking for work and have put my...

I have been an absolute b...................and it is coming back to haunt me and for this I am using to ask for anyone who has been hurt by my advice that I am truly sorry.I am not college...

Today it was 8 months since I found Brads lifeless body on the grass at our house in the Greenwood section of seattle.Brad was turned on his stomach and i saw all of the blood and that is when I...

Friday it will be 8 months since I lost Brad.And the trauma of finding him in the yard will always be with me.Brad commited suicide and I am still out of it.This is a subject that I cant talk...