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On 2/18/2010..Brad would have been 50 and it was a a good day for me.I arose and i cried over the fact that this is his first birthday without a celebration.I was waiting for a message from stanley...

tomorrow is2/18 and it woul d have been brads 50 th birthday.He is not here to help me celebrate and in fact this is the first birthday without him.Brad was strange when it came to holidays and...

On May 22,2009 I awoke from my two hour sleep to find the nude body of my boyfriend on the grass in our back yard.He killed himself and i held him in my arms.He died in my arms,just like my sainted...

what next about greiving? Does anyone know? Does anyone have got any help or suggestions? I dont know what to do next.I am out of work and i still plug away almost everyday.I have put in 8...

After the shock of losing Brad and the lost of his financial support,and I am in mourning...what do i do now?I mean..how do I act? What do I say? I am in a big awe.Brads death has really hurt me.And...

The lonelines of 8 months just never ends and every day i wonder why.Why did my Brad kill himself? Why? This question I am playing over and over.I have been busy looking for work and have put my...

I have been an absolute b...................and it is coming back to haunt me and for this I am using to ask for anyone who has been hurt by my advice that I am truly sorry.I am not college...

Today it was 8 months since I found Brads lifeless body on the grass at our house in the Greenwood section of seattle.Brad was turned on his stomach and i saw all of the blood and that is when I...

Friday it will be 8 months since I lost Brad.And the trauma of finding him in the yard will always be with me.Brad commited suicide and I am still out of it.This is a subject that I cant talk...

It is January 2010.I finally made it.Soon it will be 8 months that I lost Brad and i am realizing that Brad planned all of this.Brad was having very severeproblems that he did not talk to me about.He...

the 7 months and christmas have come and gone.I was really good.but on christmas..i broke down and noone was here except my cats.Brad left me with limited funds and for the past several days.I have...

Tuesday it willb e 7 months that I lost Brad.Brad was all that I had and in the end we were not getting along.When he starts drinking,.he is unbearable and he knew it.I thin k that Brad wanted to die...

to all please do us in this emotional pain after a suicide..please let the grieving grieve.it is not necessary to call me every day,to ask how I am doing.It is not necessary to bring some of the most...

Why cant people let me grieve? I am getting sick and tired of being reminded how bad i look.To the ignorant people who commented...this is the story.I found Brad on the grass at our house on May...

I have got the holiday blues and they sure are awful.This awful feeling just wont go away and my medication isnt helping.I passed out from the medication and blacked out on my bed.When I awoke,my...