i am getting over brads death by vader...5 years

on May 22nd,it will be 5 years that I lost Brad.And if it wasnt for the wonderful people of this support system I wouldnt have been able to survive.Daily Strength is that.I wasnt expecting Brad to die.But he did not choose life.Brad choose death and it cann ot be repeated.I am coming out of my shadow and Iam learning to do things.Life is for the living.I dont know who long I have to live but I want a long and happy life and I have survived without two people.My brother and Brad and it is a long haul,,but I am so glad that I made it this far and there is a song beyond the rainbow.Once again thanks......vader