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It has been a long three years and I am finally free.Nooone knows of my pain nomore and at this stage of the game.It is not necessarcy.I will always love Brad and always remember the good times that...

I am doing volunteer work and I love it.I may get hired for part time job and it will take my mind off of Brad and all of the events of the past three years.Brad was all i had and he knew it.He was...

I am beginning to come out of mourning and realizing that Brad will no longer come back.Brad was everything for me for 12 years and he died in my arms.He was all I had and I will never forget him or...

Saturday it will have been Brads 52nd birthday.I miss him so much and noone seems to understand my pain.I cant forget Brad.He wasnt good to me during the last three years of his life.He was cruel and...

the thought that Brad did not love me has hurt me to the extreme.He was my rock for almost 13 years and to have him turn on me is just too much for me to take.I will always love Brad and it is not my...

 Love hurts and what hurts more is that the fact i am not girlfriend material and i never will be.I feel abandoned and i feel lost and I feel like noone will ever help or love me again.But I do feel...

many years ago I was supposed to be married.We were going to elope .I was 19 and he was 25.We were very much in love.But then something happened and it never was.Afew years passed and much to my...

I realize now that Brad in his own tortured way was begging for help.But I also realize at the end Brad did not love me and when I realized this..I felt so much better.Love is so different for...

 Today Brad would have been 51 and this pain is growing.He is all I think about and where I am I cant get any help.If you are on a limited income in seattle,there is really no help available in...

Brads death has hit me hard and i am finding new ways to get around it.Number one I am eating better.I now eat three meals a day.I am getting food stamps now because my income is  low.Everybody...

it was 20 months since I lost Brad and i am discovering who my real friends are.And It is very,very lonely at the top.I feel so abandoned and i have  got really noone to talk to.This is because...

Βwhy am I still choked with emotion? It has been 20 months!But the emotion of seeing Brad dead and seeing the police put him in that bag will always be part of me> I miss Brad.We were not getting...

On Saturday the 22nd of January it will be 20 months since I Lost Brad and for 20 months I had nothing b ut problems and now I believe they are ceasing.I have someone who is going to sublet my garage...

On the 22nd of December it was 19 months that I found my Brad.It was a very gruesome sight and I will never forget it.These 19 months have been one of growth for me and i realize that I must go...

 This journal will make other people mad and I expect a lot of flak.But the other woman who Brad was seeing to me is responbile for his death.When I met Brad,all he did was talk about her and he...