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I know I'm not needed anymore so I guess I should just fade away like I usually do. I hate the fact that I am just that type of person who helps when needed then I just let the person go back to their normal life but I guess that's just who I am. I am the guy everyone vents to but I have no one to vent to myself because if I let my emotions get in the way I get hurt. My emotional wall is too strong to let anyone through. I sometimes make a hole in it just to see what will happen but more times than not my craziness just pours out of it.
In other news my date is almost here I think I have found a way to succeed for sure this time. I will no longer be a burden to those around me. The only question is will I be strong enough to do it. I am not doing this because of a girl or because of any other reason that doesn't seem illogical. I just don't have a purpose left in this world. Even if we win in court I would just be a financial drain on my grandparents and if we lose as I expect we will my grandparents will be able to live out their retirement just like they wanted.