Her

I love her... there I said it I love this girl that I can't be with. I can't stand not being there for her just holding her close telling her she is amazing would make my life... I know its tough on her but I cant help it. .. I swore 4 years ago I wouldn't let anyone get close again and while I still haven't let her in completely my emotional barriers are weakening.I don't want to get hurt again and I know she doesnt either but... I don't know... I stayed up all through the night for the first week just in case she needed/wanted to talk. Every 2 seconds I was checking for that green light... I felt a connection right off the bat... call me crazy but i just can't get this girl out of my head. I am afraid that this girl will leave me or that I will fuck up and she won't talk to me again but all I want is for her to be happy... I am living on borrowed time and thanks to her it is worth it.