MermaidSinger

I just wanted to start off by saying your journal comments on my last entry made me tear up. I have never felt so cared about, everyone gave such good advice and I felt so supported. I am used to...

Today I went to therapy and all hell broke loose. My mother's insurance switched because her work changed everybody's provider, and they don't take my current therapist. I freaked out, I am not...

So I have a busy next few days. Tomorrow: mini-golfing/bumper boating. We were gonna go Thursday but switched it because one of my friends has to work. So I have to wake up fairly early for...

Well I found out why I have been consuming the whole earth...I hadn't gotten a refill on one of my meds, and one of the side effects is decreased appetite. So to go cold turkey on it was wreaking...

Well. I haven't been up to much, just consuming the whole world and feeling crappy.I went out to the Cheesecake Factory today. I tried to be normal and I order grilled cheese just like the other two...

Well. The feelings are back. I feel completely hopeless and anxious and I just want to roll over and die.It was so much easier when I was restricting. The trade-off was that I couldn't feel extreme...

I had a binge last night for the first time in WEEKS. And by binge I don't mean little bit of cereal. I had bites of danish, cake, everything I had deprived myself of. And the guilt afterwards was...

I am starting to feel the negative effects here. My "plan" has been 1000 cals a day. I haven't really considered it starving because I used to eat 300 a day and my metabolism was just shot. So I...

I have a friend coming over soon. She is sleeping over for the night, and I am kind of anxious, which is pathetic but true.  I don't go to bed until like three in the morning, and I don't eat...

I never feel anything but "okay" lately. Sometimes I wonder what that means, but I'm not complaining. A month or so ago I was incapacitated with fear and dread. Now I don't really feel much of...

I am doing ok today. Tomorrow I have work from 2-9, which I am really not looking forward to. I hope I don't have to Kidcheck, which is basically standing at the entrance for hours and stamping...

Today was meh. It started out a little rocky. I didn't wake up until one, and when I did I went on the treadmill but could only run for a half hour before I had to stop and take a break. I was so...

Well, I haven't really stayed as updated here as I would have liked, but I'm certainly going to try more! I miss the support, and I miss the chance to talk to and help others. I miss this...

Hello all!Things are insanely busy...rehearsals, AP summer assignments that I should be starting and that are making me totally anxious, maintaining relationships with friends and family, singing at...