MermaidSinger

I am starting to feel the negative effects here. My "plan" has been 1000 cals a day. I haven't really considered it starving because I used to eat 300 a day and my metabolism was just shot. So I...

I have a friend coming over soon. She is sleeping over for the night, and I am kind of anxious, which is pathetic but true.  I don't go to bed until like three in the morning, and I don't eat...

I never feel anything but "okay" lately. Sometimes I wonder what that means, but I'm not complaining. A month or so ago I was incapacitated with fear and dread. Now I don't really feel much of...

I am doing ok today. Tomorrow I have work from 2-9, which I am really not looking forward to. I hope I don't have to Kidcheck, which is basically standing at the entrance for hours and stamping...

Today was meh. It started out a little rocky. I didn't wake up until one, and when I did I went on the treadmill but could only run for a half hour before I had to stop and take a break. I was so...

Well, I haven't really stayed as updated here as I would have liked, but I'm certainly going to try more! I miss the support, and I miss the chance to talk to and help others. I miss this...

Hello all!Things are insanely busy...rehearsals, AP summer assignments that I should be starting and that are making me totally anxious, maintaining relationships with friends and family, singing at...

Oh...my god. This is surreal. I got it. I am Erzulie, the Goddess of Love, in Once on this Island. This is so emotional and unbelievable. My song got caught down a bit since we're pinched for time,...

To quote A Chorus Line: "Who am I anyway? Am I my resume? That is a picture of a person I don't know... What do they want from me? Who should I try to be? So many faces all around and here we go......

Hey everybody!!! Ok so I cant possibly update the entirety of my junior year here, but I'll try to give a brief summation! I have missed you all so much, and now that summer is coming around again I...

I'm out of my fucking mind. I am absolutely fucknig crazy. I was looking forward to this girls day out Saturday but everyone cancelled and it PISSED ME OFF SO MUCH!! I don't even know why, but it...

Hello everyone! Hope you're doing well! You know what I've noticed? A lot of the time, my smiley is always yellow. Numb. I just stay in that altered state. I don't even know anymore. This journal...

Hello everyone! So as quick as my awesome mood came yesterday after recieivng myschedule in the mail, it was gone. Thanks to my good old "friend" I told you all about previously. I call her D. We are...

 Hello everybody! Hope you are doing well!  Today brings awesome, super spectacular news for me! I got my schedule in the mail, and for math, I have my all time favorite teacher, Ms. Adams! She is...

Hello everyone. I am oh so totally trapped at the moment. I feel cornered by ED and I'm afraid I will never recover. I am starving myself crazy and purging up EVERY little thing I eat. And I do mean...