MermaidSinger

Monotony is setting in. It's just so BLARGH.I keep seeing her EVERYWHERE. I want to carve my eyeballs out of my head so I won't keep seeing her face. Everything reminds me of her. It's really weird...

I have not slept. In 48 hours.I am going to jump out a window.I have tried decongestant pills, nasal strips, saline nose drops, vapo-baths, steam, EVERYTHING. I am SO CONGESTED and can't breathe...

Blargh. Not a ton to say atm but I figured I might as well update.1. First of all I just have to say that my nose is super stuffy right now. I took two Sudafeds and have been blowing my nose like a...

Blargh. Not a ton to say atm but I figured I might as well update.1. First of all I just have to say that my nose is super stuffy right now. I took two Sudafeds and have been blowing my nose like a...

Well I've been able to analyze as rationally as is possible for me, and I realized I have two major problems in my my life right nwo. They are the two toughest things to have happened to me up until...

I just wanted to start off by saying your journal comments on my last entry made me tear up. I have never felt so cared about, everyone gave such good advice and I felt so supported. I am used to...

Today I went to therapy and all hell broke loose. My mother's insurance switched because her work changed everybody's provider, and they don't take my current therapist. I freaked out, I am not...

So I have a busy next few days. Tomorrow: mini-golfing/bumper boating. We were gonna go Thursday but switched it because one of my friends has to work. So I have to wake up fairly early for...

Well I found out why I have been consuming the whole earth...I hadn't gotten a refill on one of my meds, and one of the side effects is decreased appetite. So to go cold turkey on it was wreaking...

Well. I haven't been up to much, just consuming the whole world and feeling crappy.I went out to the Cheesecake Factory today. I tried to be normal and I order grilled cheese just like the other two...

Well. The feelings are back. I feel completely hopeless and anxious and I just want to roll over and die.It was so much easier when I was restricting. The trade-off was that I couldn't feel extreme...

I had a binge last night for the first time in WEEKS. And by binge I don't mean little bit of cereal. I had bites of danish, cake, everything I had deprived myself of. And the guilt afterwards was...