It won't let me change my face-but it would be orange.

Well. I haven't been up to much, just consuming the whole world and feeling crappy.

I went out to the Cheesecake Factory today. I tried to be normal and I order grilled cheese just like the other two girls I went with. I had a half of it and a few fries. I felt enormous. I am still dealing with how much I ate today, I just hate feeling fat. I hate eating, it makes me feel too many things.

I am feeling really anxious about the future. I was anxious just going out to the mall today with the two girls who I am not that close to. How am I going to survive in the real world? Sometimes I really think I wasn't meant to live past 18. I wasn't built for it. I'm way too fragile. It takes way too little to break me.

I don't really know what else to write, I feel sluggish and shitty. And I am not looking forward to anything.