Levismommy

I'm a wreck still but that's okay. I have to revert to the basics to make it I guess, meening, one step at a time, one breath at a time. I hate it, no joke. i don't deal well with realizing how weak...

I am trying tonight and tomorow to not think about the hurt and the fear I have endured for so long. I'm not whining or being dramatic, I am being ruined by my past and my loss. I wouldn't care if i...

I cried in the shower finally. I just needed to cry I guess. This month has been off the wall and too busy. And, guess What? Our pretty, fancy minivan is acting up, already! I might have to pull a...

Hey everyone...today was better. I was sure that I finally lost my mind yesterday, truly, i was sure.I still don't know aht happened eactly, i've actually felt like that before. it's only happened a...

World, i had a crappy day. I wish that I could be more articulate but that really sums it up.I try so hard to be strong. We all do in our own ways. And, most of the time, I'm convinced that I at...

I'm so tired tonight, it's pretty late. But, this weekend has been a better one.My husband's truch broke down for the third time (it poops out somehow once a year for the last three years) and long...

Some days, i still want to ball up and sob out all of my pain. Some days I just want to sob because i am smiling when just a year ago, a peice of my heart and part of my soul went down into the...

I'm ok today! Yeah, everything happens for a reason and if we have any sence at all, we move on and learn.I'm nervouse about facing my ex husband in court soon. I still am not aware of a court date,...

ok, let me explain one simple thing. When I write about levi, I write what is on my heart for that moment. I feel release when i write and I also feel further along in my grief process.I will never...

If I close my eyes and think without trying so hard, I can see his face and nearly feel his skin touching mine. I imagine my face against his, I can almost smell the milk on his breath and know his...

today was niether here nor there. i was pretty lazy to be honest.some days I jsut decide that I hate housework, so I put it off. I almost convince myself to not do anything at all. But, when my house...

I'm better today. My neighbor would love to know that she still makes me crazy! So, I won't let her anymore. There, it's settled!I've been getting restless again. I should go bring Levi some flowers...

i have this neighbor and I really nearly dispise her. She has three children, two of which are boys who are not much different in age than my oldest boy. But, they are MANIACS! Ok, world, I know that...

My grandmother (another grandma, of course!) asked me tonight if I was going to use Levi's clothes for our new baby. I thought, have i not already gone through this with everyone? i wasn't angry, but...

My grandma died on the 27th of feb, last weekend was fast and furious. We returned home from Texas on Saturday, the 3rd of March just in time to prepare for Levi's first death anniversary.We let go...