I'm so tired tonight, it's pretty late. But, this weekend has been a better one.
My husband's truch broke down for the third time (it poops out somehow once a year for the last three years) and long story short, we are left with my little two door sports car! Yeah, it's been crazy with kids. Anyway, we are probably buying this beautiful van, ok, yep, I said beautiful and van in the same sentence! So, the FUNNY part is that my husband (you'd have to know him but I'm sure that you can imagine) is addicted to driving it (we have it for the weekned). I have spent more time in that dang van than I have at home the last two days.
He told the guys at work that we might be getting one before we started looking and they kind of poked fun at him. But he said, "my wife says that real men drive minivans"!
Really, that has to be true. Motorcylcles and gig trucks and things that go fast and run hard are guy like but driving a mini van with a smile would take a brave soldier among peers for a guy!
So, that's my weekend. We'll see if the one we have is the one, but no matter what, we rae buying another vehicle! We'll ahve too many kids for us to stay sane with in my little car! You guys should have seen us with twins and my oldest in that two door, it was a sight!
I feel better than in my last entry. Thank you for your replies, they have helped. I'm really learning how to accept advice, it can often be a lifeline for me in so many ways.
He will always be my levi, my sunshine. I will always miss him, no matter how long has passed. He is my angel, my gift and i've learned so much about who I am becasue of who he was and is.
I'll always wish that I could change that day, it's a wish that I can't change.
But, for tonight, I am ok. Maybe I'll dream of him bouncing in his saucer, drool dripping from his chin with his favorite toy. That would be so nice to dream of him! I'm sleepy so I'll go and hope that tonight will be the night I can be with him even if it's only in my mind for a fleeting moment it will be so precious and forgiving.
My husband's truch broke down for the third time (it poops out somehow once a year for the last three years) and long story short, we are left with my little two door sports car! Yeah, it's been crazy with kids. Anyway, we are probably buying this beautiful van, ok, yep, I said beautiful and van in the same sentence! So, the FUNNY part is that my husband (you'd have to know him but I'm sure that you can imagine) is addicted to driving it (we have it for the weekned). I have spent more time in that dang van than I have at home the last two days.
He told the guys at work that we might be getting one before we started looking and they kind of poked fun at him. But he said, "my wife says that real men drive minivans"!
Really, that has to be true. Motorcylcles and gig trucks and things that go fast and run hard are guy like but driving a mini van with a smile would take a brave soldier among peers for a guy!
So, that's my weekend. We'll see if the one we have is the one, but no matter what, we rae buying another vehicle! We'll ahve too many kids for us to stay sane with in my little car! You guys should have seen us with twins and my oldest in that two door, it was a sight!
I feel better than in my last entry. Thank you for your replies, they have helped. I'm really learning how to accept advice, it can often be a lifeline for me in so many ways.
He will always be my levi, my sunshine. I will always miss him, no matter how long has passed. He is my angel, my gift and i've learned so much about who I am becasue of who he was and is.
I'll always wish that I could change that day, it's a wish that I can't change.
But, for tonight, I am ok. Maybe I'll dream of him bouncing in his saucer, drool dripping from his chin with his favorite toy. That would be so nice to dream of him! I'm sleepy so I'll go and hope that tonight will be the night I can be with him even if it's only in my mind for a fleeting moment it will be so precious and forgiving.
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I hope that someday you will be less sad...that is my prayer for you! There will always be a sad section in your heart, but may the sad days be few and far between. May the sad turn to joy and the joy to light. Hope your day is great! Love ya! Paula XXXXXXXXXXXXXX
I am glad you like the minivan. You guys need it but, i have a hard time imagining Donnie driving a beast like that! I love you and I hope you\'re feeling a bit better.
I know about men and minivans. I have a minivan too my husband at first laughed but once he started driving it he got addicted to it too and loves it. He has a giant diesel truck but I secretly believe he prefers the minivan, so much more comfortable. Real men do drive minivans, Your so right. I hope you get to visit your sweet Levi in your dreams, I have been praying for the same thing nightly, I believe Im getting closer. Keep up the good work, Lots of prayers and love. Kate