Levismommy

i am willing to be happy. that's all that i can say today. and, i am willing to truly live on but still hold my levi in my heart. I can't lewt him go, i can't fix "it". but, still, I can love him and...

I haven't had a drink in days....I'm trying to regain perspective instead of diluting it. Alcohol can be a slippery escape for me at this point in my life.I don't have much else to say tonight, I'm...

I have been looking online for houses for days...I'm quite obssessed with it. I usually have to have something to focus intensely on, I've put away other things, now, I'm on a house hunt. I think...

I've been so sad for weeks now. I miss my Levi. Court is rescheduled so now I just think of Levi, one thing or another it seems. I kiss Zachary's neck and I remember kissing levi's....I remember his...

Here come my emotions.....I have fought them for a while now. I miss my baby. I miss my strong little guy, my monkey, my prayer.I feel so deep when I feel. I am lost inside of myself and my heart....

Today was a little hard. Sometimes I feel that bewildering anger and heavy aching so deeply, almost like the day that Levi died. Now, I want to hide from it instead of fight it. I've always been a...

Sometimes I wish that God gave us the big book of answers to everything, don't we all!?Kids are hard, marriage is harder but to lose either is worse. I looked for potted flowers today for Levi and...

memorial day is near.... I hate to look forward to it. I'll bring Levi a plant oir some potted flowers this time.His resting spot is admittedly over decorated, yes, still. I have my nights and I use...

Hello to everryone of my friends.....thank you for the hugs and messages! I'm not on very much, I can't be, I'm so dang busy. But, I miss you all and I so very much hope that you all are well. I'm...

My Zachary is perfect. We are so bonded and I am in love with him. I hope that all is well out there, I still am not completely back. But, that's ok...we all go where we are supposed to, that's life....

Hello to everyone, I'm sorry if i worried anyone, i needed time. My little boy is doing wondeful. his name is Zachary, he was born on the 22nd, he weighed 9 lbs 6 oz. I won't be on as often, sleep is...

I just wrote to a friend here and I discovered that we are on the same track... with so much going on as it is and us expecting, I have so little time to write anymore. And, in truth, in the...

I only have a moment, it's so late... I just wanted to let all of my friends know that I may be having the baby anytime now so if i'm not on or not answering messages or hugs, i am problably in the...

You were hereI saw youwith your crystal blue eyesand your gentle dimplesYes, you were hereyou struggled then overcamewhen everyone stood in doubt...theyd say youd be finethough they muttered only...

I'm feelong better as far as the anxiety stuff goes. It's been a really long week! The big one happened 13:30 am friday morning, then, i had these little ones that frequented after that. My doc isn't...