Levismommy

I miss Levi today...nothing articulate....I just ache for him.....

I decided today that no matter the fear that I may have in any given thing, that I can, with God's help, surrender the fear to Him and have confidence.....and, i have a plan, hopefully whithin God's...

Integrity....doing what one says that they will do...doing something RIGHT when no one is looking...being authentic in who they are, what they say and what they do......my lesson for the week....and,...

I heard it again, yesterday, that "who knows what struggles Levi might have had"....yes, my stomach turned and i was tempted to let loose....but i took it and let it go. What do they know, any of...

 It's almost been four years and it still makes me almost tremble with anger when people say "well, there must have been something wrong with him that no one could foretell or see"....."maybe it was...

I have cried most of the week, over silly things, then over memories of Levi....almost four years has passed and the ache is still there, the wonder, the confusion of that day. Yet, I know that I am...

I try so hard to be everything and more, yet see myself as nothing....I have fought through all adversity but tonight, I'm turning in my fighting badge for many battles. This is a good thing. I can...

I watch so many hide from their emotions, their fears, their worst nightmare.....not me, not anymore. When I must fight, I fight....when I lose, I wait for the next round, but with acceptance.I...

I'm not on much anymore, but I will check in more often! I need to so that I am available for those that are new and for those that may need to vent. I definately care, still, emmensely....Life is...

Pretty girl,where did your true face goand pretty girl,where do you hide your smileare they tucked within your pocketor burried beneath the sandhave you forgotten that you lost themor was losing them...

Today is Lacey and Levi's 4th birthday. I miss him terribly.Last night, I found out that my friend Jim passed away after recieving his new liver, I miss him too.Life is hard when you are in it, but...

Zachy was in the hospital for a few days with pnemonia...suprisingly enough, I didn't lose myself in it. They decided that he had the begining og pnemonia and he has asthma, it is actually seriouse...

the willow I imagine a safe place, one sheilded from shame and agony.....A willow droops above me, enveloping me with it's branches....the sun sets peacefully, radiating a light so beyond...

I am doing better and better friends. I have been sober for a month now and therapy is helping much. i still can not remember the treatment's name that I am recieving! it starts with an R. if that...

Where is my baby, why is he not with me? why can I not feel him, smell him, laugh with him now? I hide these thoughts, they scream inside of me every day as I try to live and move forward. I can not...