5/28/2013
I've not been feeling well. all the sinus/allergy stuff. I'm not sick but the draining makes me queasy. Trying to fight that..
Many years ago, during our off and on dating, etc--he dumped me for the woman who would be wife #2. One of the ways I 'dealt" with it was to put a curse on him. I was living in New Orleans, so it seemed appropriate. About 2 years later after pulling myself out the relationship from hell, the anger was gone and i began the grieving stage. I loved him. I missed him, but obviously it was not going to happen. It had been 2 years without any contact, which was easier then because he lived several states away. I took the curse off..hahaha and I started to pray. Every night and every morning I prayed that God would bless him (them) and that he would take away the love I had for this man. Of course, at the time, I didn't realize what a wicked sense of humor God has. NOW, I do and I've had words with HIM about it more than once. About 6 weeks after I started praying, the man called me out of the blue. blah blah blah
The reason this comes up is I was reading a book tonight and something in the book reminded me of that time. I realized...that I have not once prayed for these feelings to be taken away. This time I've just tried to ignore them, repress them, whatever. And nothing is working. So, i'm going to spend some time each day in prayer. Which isn't gonna be easy cause I've been pretty pissed off with HIM since my mom died. We've "had words" more than once. HA! When my cat died at Christmas...I just started laughing. I told Him "I guess you really think you are funny, huh?" But, I've been slowly making my way back to Him...maybe it's time.
Many years ago, during our off and on dating, etc--he dumped me for the woman who would be wife #2. One of the ways I 'dealt" with it was to put a curse on him. I was living in New Orleans, so it seemed appropriate. About 2 years later after pulling myself out the relationship from hell, the anger was gone and i began the grieving stage. I loved him. I missed him, but obviously it was not going to happen. It had been 2 years without any contact, which was easier then because he lived several states away. I took the curse off..hahaha and I started to pray. Every night and every morning I prayed that God would bless him (them) and that he would take away the love I had for this man. Of course, at the time, I didn't realize what a wicked sense of humor God has. NOW, I do and I've had words with HIM about it more than once. About 6 weeks after I started praying, the man called me out of the blue. blah blah blah
The reason this comes up is I was reading a book tonight and something in the book reminded me of that time. I realized...that I have not once prayed for these feelings to be taken away. This time I've just tried to ignore them, repress them, whatever. And nothing is working. So, i'm going to spend some time each day in prayer. Which isn't gonna be easy cause I've been pretty pissed off with HIM since my mom died. We've "had words" more than once. HA! When my cat died at Christmas...I just started laughing. I told Him "I guess you really think you are funny, huh?" But, I've been slowly making my way back to Him...maybe it's time.
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