ok. All better now. I realized this morning that I was viewing his calls and visit wrong. He didn't call/visit because he missed me or because he wanted to see me. If he had not received that mail that was for me, I still would not have heard from him. Put heart back in the vault where I keep it. Now thinking with my usual commons sense and practicality. I can see clearly now.
Day started out great. Not a bad day at all. But. Tomorrow is Friday and the weekend begins. I'm already dreading it. I'm already lonely, so lonely. it is what it is.