7/29/13

Three weeks since I've seen him. Ten days since I've had any contact with him. He called last night, but I didnt answer. I just deleted it from my caller ID.  Dr keeps calling wanting to reschedule appt I didnt go to. I'm not talking to them either. I don't feel like talking to anybody. I feel like I've been swimming upstream for over a year now and I'm tired. I'm tired of talking about it. I'm tired of trying to move forward. I'm tired of trying to build a new life. I just want to be left alone. I just want to coast right now. Summer is zooming by. The holidays will be here before I know it...and I already dread them. Oct, Nov, and Dec----wish I could just be like a bear and spend the whole time hibernating.