11/20/2013

Doing pretty well. Had therapy session today. Talked to her about how sometimes when I think of him, I don't feel anything anymore. No love, no hurt....apathy. When I do feel like that i start wondering: if that's the way I truly feel, why am I still having so much trouble dealing with it all. In particular #4 moving here and all that involves. I have no answer. I do not think I feel like that all the time. Right this minute I do, though. I'm not anxious that it has been 2 weeks of NC. I'm not wondering what he's doing/feeling as he gets ready to move #4 here next week. (well, mostly I don't wonder). I'm finally focusing more on my holiday plans and less time torturing myself about her moving here next week. This could all change tomorrow, but right now...I feel good.