10/23/2013
Therapy today. somehow I seemed to have come out sadder than when I went in. I feel emotionally tired. So tired of dealing with all of this.
Had an epiphany this weekend. When I eventually found out what was going on: that he was unhappy, blah blah blah....but before I knew about her, we agreed to do counseling. He halfheartedly agreed, but still. Anyway, This was not a long period of time because it became clear he was done so we just ended it. I think the time period was 10 days or so. ANYWAY, I realized thie weekend that during that 10 day period, we both kept up with the same behaviour. Neither of us changed our habits or behaviour. It didn't even occur to me. We didn't sit down and discuss our problems. Again, it didn't even occur to me. Even though we were supposed to be doing counseling and trying, we were acting the same as before....except I think we were both preparing to split up. In retrospect, I know I was. I think that says a lot.
Had an epiphany this weekend. When I eventually found out what was going on: that he was unhappy, blah blah blah....but before I knew about her, we agreed to do counseling. He halfheartedly agreed, but still. Anyway, This was not a long period of time because it became clear he was done so we just ended it. I think the time period was 10 days or so. ANYWAY, I realized thie weekend that during that 10 day period, we both kept up with the same behaviour. Neither of us changed our habits or behaviour. It didn't even occur to me. We didn't sit down and discuss our problems. Again, it didn't even occur to me. Even though we were supposed to be doing counseling and trying, we were acting the same as before....except I think we were both preparing to split up. In retrospect, I know I was. I think that says a lot.
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