4/21/14
I get so tired of the clichés blah blah blah blah... "Change your attitude" "You can make a choice to be happy" "Keep a gratitude journal" sigh...even people who supposedly know and understand depression through this BS at me..... GEEZ people! Don't you think I WOULD if I COULD! Duh-why didn't I think of that instead of suffering through this crap for 40 plus years.... well, golly.....pffff.... Makes me want to throw up and/or smack them and/or tell them to kiss my ass. Sigh...
Well, I was sick and off work a week--again. But Easter weekend a friend got me to come down to visit her at the beach. It was so freaking awesome. Didn't even walk over to the beach though cause I really don't like all that icky sand all over me....but had a great and relaxing time.
The wedding is in 2 weeks...will be so glad when it is over! hahhahaa.
Well, thought I had told this story but evidently not. I keep my ex block on texting me. I took the block off for Friday April 11 because I wanted to see if I would hear from him (yes Im a masochist). Anyway, I DID hear from him. He had gotten something from the state about us owing taxes from a few years ago and he had paid it-wanted me to know. I said ok. We talked about the animals. I told him I had a cat and he replied that "they" have 8. Ohhhhkay.... I asked about the dogs. He said they were doing great and that "they" were getting ready to fence the backyard and would move the dogs back there then. Ohhhhkay.....tired of the "they" crap... I said well...gotta go...
So, yes we had contact. Some of it necessary, some of it not so much. But I ask you. What are the odds that the ONE day in a month, that I take the block off, that I would hear from him that day? Why did I take the block off you ask? It. was. my. BIRTHDAY. Yup. The ONE day I unblock him to see if he remembers my birthday, I DO hear from him.....but not one word about my birthday. sigh...and people think I joke when I say God isn't finished coitusing with me yet......
However, putting it in perspective, I'm sure he never gets in touch with #1 and #2 on their birthdays either. The truth is that once you are off the team....you just do not cross his mind for any reason whatsoever unless something like a bill reminds him. sigh
I am seriously considering looking for a job and moving somewhere else. This is a huge step because of my age and because I hate to move and change jobs....but I'm beginning to think I will never move forward otherwise.... Not doing anything right now....Not even thinking about it until after the wedding...
Well, I was sick and off work a week--again. But Easter weekend a friend got me to come down to visit her at the beach. It was so freaking awesome. Didn't even walk over to the beach though cause I really don't like all that icky sand all over me....but had a great and relaxing time.
The wedding is in 2 weeks...will be so glad when it is over! hahhahaa.
Well, thought I had told this story but evidently not. I keep my ex block on texting me. I took the block off for Friday April 11 because I wanted to see if I would hear from him (yes Im a masochist). Anyway, I DID hear from him. He had gotten something from the state about us owing taxes from a few years ago and he had paid it-wanted me to know. I said ok. We talked about the animals. I told him I had a cat and he replied that "they" have 8. Ohhhhkay.... I asked about the dogs. He said they were doing great and that "they" were getting ready to fence the backyard and would move the dogs back there then. Ohhhhkay.....tired of the "they" crap... I said well...gotta go...
So, yes we had contact. Some of it necessary, some of it not so much. But I ask you. What are the odds that the ONE day in a month, that I take the block off, that I would hear from him that day? Why did I take the block off you ask? It. was. my. BIRTHDAY. Yup. The ONE day I unblock him to see if he remembers my birthday, I DO hear from him.....but not one word about my birthday. sigh...and people think I joke when I say God isn't finished coitusing with me yet......
However, putting it in perspective, I'm sure he never gets in touch with #1 and #2 on their birthdays either. The truth is that once you are off the team....you just do not cross his mind for any reason whatsoever unless something like a bill reminds him. sigh
I am seriously considering looking for a job and moving somewhere else. This is a huge step because of my age and because I hate to move and change jobs....but I'm beginning to think I will never move forward otherwise.... Not doing anything right now....Not even thinking about it until after the wedding...
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