4/23/2014
He texted me today to tell me that one of the dogs has lost all of his hair on his back. I asked him why. He said he thinks its allergies because the dog is in good health, eating, etc..... I said ok. Then, as a test, I said "my cat is spoiled. She keeps screaming at me" Silence.....never did reply to that... sigh
The wedding is coming closer and closer. I leave for Tennessee a week from Friday. I will be so glad when it is over. I am very happy for my brother and I love her. But since it's all about ME (lol): I will be missing my parents so very very much. I will be missing R. so very very much. Even the fun parts will be difficult because it's hard for me to not be thinking how much more fun it would be if R was with me....and it would be... Cause he was/is a lot of fun.... sigh
Still defining my life by him: what would he think of this haircut/color? What would he think about this or that? I wonder if he heard about this or that and what he thought about it... and on and on and ad nauseum
The wedding is coming closer and closer. I leave for Tennessee a week from Friday. I will be so glad when it is over. I am very happy for my brother and I love her. But since it's all about ME (lol): I will be missing my parents so very very much. I will be missing R. so very very much. Even the fun parts will be difficult because it's hard for me to not be thinking how much more fun it would be if R was with me....and it would be... Cause he was/is a lot of fun.... sigh
Still defining my life by him: what would he think of this haircut/color? What would he think about this or that? I wonder if he heard about this or that and what he thought about it... and on and on and ad nauseum
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Honey, just take it easy. I know what you mean. Whenever I would think whether he would like this or would not like that. I would pull back and do what I liked. It will take time and effort but you can do it. I know for sure that he hates the colour red, because his mommy said so. What do I do. Buy red bedspread with red sheets. Little things that you can do to break that cycle of thinking. Have fun at the wedding. Hugs
oh i always end up doing what I want.... I just hate that he enters my mind