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I have stuck to my meal plan. I missed my chocolate bar for afternoon snack as I binged. I had plenty to cover me for that so I just had a drink in the afternoon but I continued to have what I was...

So after posting my thread 'Circles' on here yesterday I decided to try again with the food. I talked to my Mum so she knew I wanted to try again too. I had the food I would have had at day patients...

I'm sure a lot of you will identify with this, but I just feel like I'm going in circles. Stage 1: When I was doing what I needed to do with the food and putting on the weight I ended up so depressed...

Sigh...So come April 6th I'll be cutting my second day down from Day Patients. Which will be a Tuesday now. I was going to be starting an Art course for the Wednesday that I have off at the moment...

I've dropped out a lot of the groups I was doing whilst in day patients. They're not compulsary but I always used to go. I stopped going when the depression was really bad and now I just don't want...

Horrible therapy session yesterday. But I got home, made the decision that I HAD to make some changes. Told my Mum that I needed more support with food. Had a full dinner AND pudding like I'm...

and today he's lost his job...what next? WHAT NEXT!?There is WAY too much fucking drama going on in this family at the moment. How the hell am I supposed to even TRY and think of making the changes I...

Well that's it...I told my Mum about the whole POVA business if the bf moved in yesterday.....he's moved in today....don't really know what else to say to be honest.

Oh god! This just get's worse!!!I spoke to my therapist briefly today (proper appointment is tomorrow) and the procedure is they will have to contact my CMHT who will then have to 'assess' my...

The possibility of my Mum's bf moving in is now quite probable. Sometime next week or the week after. He has plucked up the courage to ask which is what my Mum was waiting for.Trouble is...I'm in the...

My mood swings are actually unbelievable...UN-BELIEVABLE!!!!Right, update:This morning - woke up and wished I had succeeded again.Later that morning - feeings intensifyed when I had to tell the rest...

Today was just another reminder of just how fucked up my head still is, despite me being able to be completely normal around everyone at day patients today and once again....my Mum.I told my key...

It didn't work... I obviously didn't have enough. Either that or my meds really ARE a placebo like I feared. I don't remember falling asleep after cutting again but I must have done. Woke up earlier...

I guess this could be a bit of a warning to you all if I'm not around. I don't want to go into too much detail...I'm tired of it all. Ended up with me at about 3:30am getting up to go downstairs and...

I want to cry... so much. Still can't. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm crawling in my own skin. I want out!