Last Night

I guess this could be a bit of a warning to you all if I'm not around. I don't want to go into too much detail...I'm tired of it all. Ended up with me at about 3:30am getting up to go downstairs and OD. What I didn't expect was that my Mum had obviously asked my Brother to sleep with his door open. There was no way I could get downstairs without being heard.So I'm alone at the moment. My Mum has gone to visit my Nan in hospital and my Brother has gone to have his hair cut. The perfect time to get the tablets ready to try again tonight if I still feel the same. At the moment I do which is a promising sign. I feel it's the only option left. I can't carry on like this anymore.The only reason I'm not doing it now is because I know my Mum will blame herself for going out to visit my Nan. I couldn't do that. She asked me if I would be alright while she went and I said yes. I'll keep that promise even if I can't keep any others.I just hope I have enough...