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Goal UpdateI've only lost 1/4 lb since yesterday :( I had cod in parsley sauce last night. Creamy...I think that was where I went wrong. Even though I did my exercises last night, they arn't fat...

Today I had my appointment with my pdoc. We've reached a point in my illness where we're a bit stuck. I've had CBT and it didn't work for me (although the therapist I was seeing had told me in my...

Goal UpdateI'm going to update for the previous day as I keep forgetting to do it at night.Had a REALLY bad day calorie wise and needless to say, I paid for it when I weighed myself this...

Not writing much because I'm not feeling good.Had appointment with the lady and I've been told I have an appointment at the hospital unit on the 6th May. I thought "great, I don't have to wait much...

I'm trying hard to just let it go. I really want to self harm and my head is calling me all the names under the sun. Repeating what a failure I am and I don't deserve help. I know I've got to try...

I woke up last night (this morning) at 2 am and it's now nearly 9 o'clock in the evening. That's 19 hours and I'm still wide awake. I take Mirtazapine which is a sedative so when I take that, it...

Been to see the Dietician again today and he's given me some 'homework'. He's asked me to drink 1 pint of milk a day to help with Protein and Carb losses as I'm still losing weight. I've stopped...

Feeling....I don't know really. It's rather 'existing' really. Nothing planned really. I know what I'm doing my Mum and Brother for dinner tonight, planned that this morning. For my Mum it's a baked...

Had the second part of the assessment done. Basically I'll be going as an inpatient to the main hospital. They only have 12 beds in their Eating Disorder unit though so they are going to contact the...

I'm really upset this morning and I know I shouldn't be. I still want to recover although after Monday I've found it hard to remain determined to fight this. But despite this I'm just so angry with...

Yesterday I had my second appointment with the dietician. He looked at my bloods gave me some feedback and we started our first therapy session.I'm finding it really hard to put thoughts into speach...