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I'm trying hard to just let it go. I really want to self harm and my head is calling me all the names under the sun. Repeating what a failure I am and I don't deserve help. I know I've got to try...

I woke up last night (this morning) at 2 am and it's now nearly 9 o'clock in the evening. That's 19 hours and I'm still wide awake. I take Mirtazapine which is a sedative so when I take that, it...

Been to see the Dietician again today and he's given me some 'homework'. He's asked me to drink 1 pint of milk a day to help with Protein and Carb losses as I'm still losing weight. I've stopped...

Feeling....I don't know really. It's rather 'existing' really. Nothing planned really. I know what I'm doing my Mum and Brother for dinner tonight, planned that this morning. For my Mum it's a baked...

Had the second part of the assessment done. Basically I'll be going as an inpatient to the main hospital. They only have 12 beds in their Eating Disorder unit though so they are going to contact the...

I'm really upset this morning and I know I shouldn't be. I still want to recover although after Monday I've found it hard to remain determined to fight this. But despite this I'm just so angry with...

Yesterday I had my second appointment with the dietician. He looked at my bloods gave me some feedback and we started our first therapy session.I'm finding it really hard to put thoughts into speach...

I have my second appointment with the Dietician tomorrow. Taking my blood and ECG results for him to look at. I think he just wants to see me and get those results really. He's not starting any...

I don't want to write a lot today, feeling really down. Nothing much to say anyway and I just don't feel like talking. I'm just putting my goal updates up:

I'm feeling down today. I think it's because it's Friday and I know I've got another weekend to go before I have another appointment.I'm seeing the guy who did my first part of the assessment on...

Me and my Mum sat down this morning and went through the positives and negatives of fighting for this NHS funding for the private hospital or readily accepting the NHS hospital in London if...

- No point to this journal post really other than for my own satisfaction.        !!!!!!!          I WANT TO KICK MY G.P UP THE ARSE        !!!!!!!!

Had to go up to the hospital today to get my bloods and ECG done. The GP surgery has a computer system now that means they'll get the results this evening and we've got an appointment with him...