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So here I am again after being so happy over the last couple of days, back in the depths of despair. I feel so... i don't even know what words could describe it. I'm so tired of it all, physically...

I can say for the first time in ages I actually feel happy today. I had a lovely time at the stables today. Was with a white pony called Tess. She was beautiful. I groomed her, lifter her legs and...

Been here for 6 weeks now. I'm slowly getting more and more 'good' days. It's taken a long time again and some more changes of medication. I'm still up and down and seem to have no control over the...

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Another update...missed yesterday though, did ok.

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I ate fish and chips :(. Guilt guilt guilt!

I'm out of hospital now (General) and been put on loads of medication which in turn has made me put on LOADS of weight. At first I was so depressed that I just didn't care, but now i've been...

Just to let anyone here know. I was taken into a psch ward on Monday so I wont be on for a while. Thanks to everyone who sent me messages.x-Bliss-x

Vodka, Benadryl, Paracetamol and Methadone...Tomorrow I say goodbye to this world and all it's pain and suffering.x-Bliss-x

Well it's been a while since I wrote a poem and I've just finished this one so I thought i'd post it in my journal. Please be aware though it contains the subject of suicide and so may be triggering...

I know i've said this over and over, but I feel like everything is falling apart again. I don't know how to cope anymore and all I can think about is I don't want to be here. It's the only way I can...

Today has been a lovely day. It was David’s birthday and everyone has gone to bed tonight, content and happy with their day. So why have I just spent the past hour crying? Why as I lay down in bed...

I dont really know how to feel right now. This morning I started my period again for the first time since I've been ill. It's been aout 2 years and it's really freaked me out. I just keep thinking -...