malibumark

I feel so grateful to be here.I feel at the whim of life right now but I thought to remember my thoughts from yesterday ‘That my philosophy and life’s work are my consolation’ I may have to go...

I was boiling over with energy and anger todaythinking about so many things...past...present...and future..I had a meeting with my therapist this evening...gratefullywe talked and I couldn't really...

i've been discussing with my therapist and very much beleivethat when you have mental healthy challengesthere is a characteristic of having a hard time establishing meaningfulrelationships. I say...

it's funny, I made my way home today from driving someone to Reagan Airport today.On the way back I found myself thinking about coming back home. I envisioned itwithin me as like being a kid...

sometimes I need to be selfish-sometimes I need to just relax and give myself thingsthat give peace, joy, energy, beauty and good vibes to myself.

I'm starting to feel reconciled enough to life now, that I'm starting to appreciate the questions and experimentation as much as the answers.

I wrote this down, it inspires me:“It’s funny, I find that if I think about Blue as being like a special needs child I can appreciate him so much! I understand him more too. I can’t expect him...

oh boy, starting the day here - because the monastery is on lockdown because we all havecovid - the mornings are kind of up to us to fill up in our rooms.I've taken a shower and dressed and because I...

i've realized that we all have need - and our needs can overwhelm usbut if I give my need some intention i can move forward effectively in lifegive it purpose or intentionit helps

THANK YOU. Thank you for helping me express and be aware of my need and cognition and then direct me to turn it into something positive and productive. I know I need to go for my goals - and I am SO...

I am going to resign from my part time job. The environment here in Marylandhas been hostile. I was a valued employee in Malibu with a spotless 11 year recordand also was at one point Employee of the...

This was written last night.There was a lot of work today.I didn't get it all done - I just left behind someunfinished cleaning.I'm getting lost in Maryland. But I come homeand put on the robe...

I reconnected with my therapist last night after a 10 day break. I'm feeling down aboutour conversation last night. I don't know exactlywhy but I feel it has to do with me and my owncraziness.  I...

The monastery has been closed because many here have come down with COVID!Many of the clergy are staying in their rooms and meals are being delivered to them.The few of us who are well just ate...