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does our illness become our identity? I think it's important to exercise some creativityand try not to make it the safe place to refer back to as 'who I am'....My Dad was talking about that yesterday...

I was driving to the dentist this morning and just feeling so 'tappedout' because I had some wine with dinner last night (at the restaurant I took the Abbess and Sr. Ignatia to.)I just questioned my...

I took this photo yesterday, but I'm waiting for the dentist now and just praying for good stuff for all of us.have a good safe weekend!

Thank you again for everything!Things are good.  This morning I’m thinking about the conflict I feel with wanting some sense of freedom (in the world) and yet then I’m  drawn back into the...

I wrote the following email to a couple of my friends back in LA:----I’m in a waiting room at John’s Hopkins Imaging while one of the monastery’s residents gets an MRI.This morning has me...

sometimes my need is about wanting to be safe or ok or protected. Sometimes I know now to put my hysteria to the side and then get my work done. It's a great awakening of the importance of ordering...

I don't know how much of what I write is interesting and helpful or just plain crazy. So much of the time if I don't engage myself and my mind I just go to a place of being nothing and just carrying...

I was just sitting in evening meal. and to be honest it’s very easy to ‘be' here but I am starting to ask myself if I like it - or perhaps my liking of it here is takingon new depth and nuance -...

Nothing planned for the day. I skipped services and woke uplate - after which I went down to the cafeteria for first meal.Had coffee too and took the compost buckets out.Then I came back to the...

I watched a British show yesterday (Doc Martin). One of the characters said to the other in a moment of crisis that “We are the authors of our lives, it’s up to us to write it and if there’re...

I was at the pub a little while ago.I treated myself to a nice tall drink and a plate of cheese curds, followedby a diet coke and a whipped cream topped bowl of ice cream.It got me to thinking. I am...

I was having a hard time feeling engaged with a positive outlook this morning no cogent thoughts or direction. Then I thought 'maybe I'm just having a hard time waking.'Then I went about services,...

I’m in my room and I’m grateful for today. So much about making an independent venture in my life has started to yield some wisdom and vision. I’ve noticed, quite bluntly because of the pain...

I woke up at 830a today! I had the morning off from services. I had coffee and ate the morning meal. Then head back to my room and cleaned everything and did laundry. Got it all done and I feel well....