feeling blue... again

I feel like I've got this pattern to my moods. Well I am bipolar and I go up and I go down.
But I feel like i am supposed to fetter out some truth to things. I think what I said is my truth. I go up and down and that's the truth of it.
If I look for more there isn't much there. I feel like I have been spinning to find a consolatory wisdom.
Looking for that wisdom on a day when I didn't have that much going on has made my moods go crazy.
I am glad I found this movie to watch on the tv,  it's a great distraction.
I don't want to feel bad for not having the answer to my dilemma.
I don't know if any of this makes sense - does anyone else think like this?