not a great thing.

I am sorry to write like this. I just didn't know what to do.I feel like shit the past couple of days and I don't know who to talk with about it. It feels like I am getting a little illagain - but maybe it's just one of those blips that happensto each of us here on dailystrength.org . It's a pain in the ass thing to get used to or to feel ok expressing myselfabout it - I feel like I should be more solid more even tempered or somehow justgraduated from the class of hard knocks so that I can strive forward and not feel likeI have to complain or just vent. I guess it's just that - I have to work it out of my systemthough I find myself wondering a lot - what is it that makes this happen??I guess it's just part of my nature -- an extreme kind of process that is somethingI have to contend with. It blows, but I feel a somewhat better already for putting it down here.