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malibumark
Mood:  Ok

spending time is better in 'twos'

I had a wonderful time with my sister, brother in law, brother and friends today. I drove back home.


I have begun doing my routine of television watching for a Sunday night. I prepped my medicines - 


and brushed my teeth and now and lying in bed watching the shows. I am not trying to complain - I guess what


I am trying to express is a kind of epiphany. I do have things that I like to do but so often, even when watching those shows,


I am realizing that, I'd rather be spending my time while doing those routines with someone to share that time with.


So, this is a good thing in a sense. Sorry, a weird post I guess. I come online so often when I am watching tv. i kind of wondered what that meant. I guess it means I'd rather be consciousl coupling :).

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malibumark
malibumark

things are still good. As I woke up from a drowsy sleep this morning, i heard those who were awake already the others talking in the living room. My mind kind of shifted. I guess it's my nature - but I kind of left my sense of comfort - As I got up and got dressed, I realized 'it's me' - my mind for some reason
gets embattled sometimes - and so I have to humbly accept that and go along my business.
Knowing it now I can keep a healthy sense of it.
I can keep calm and (wow) carry on as the phrase occurs to me.
arfie
arfie

Could this be a 21st century translation of the Biblical yaddahs about sending disciples out in twos? Or my language circuits *just* scrambling again? They do that allot. I don't quote accurately on my best days.
malibumark
malibumark

:) - i don't know about yaddahs. all i know is that sometimes i like doing stuff alone and sometimes - I don't know why I need to figure it out - but I am just trying to (i don't know what I am trying to do anymore) - I have an issue, that gives me good days and bad days and has limited my ability to have relationships and steady career. So now I live in this board and care - and I am grateful that I have this and a loving family. I may have peaked but it's ok. Growth in any form is part of life. So I am learning to get along and keep rational.