free time and not freak out time

I today I had some ideas about what I could be doing and what I was NOT doing.

Yes, I was inspired to take the reigns of my life more today. Take some control - good inspiration.

I started to build up in enthusiasm - but ultimately not a clear direction to carry through on my ideas.

I think maybe there's always the middle time. What I mean by middle time is the part of the process

that is not always engaged in some way to the actual goal. It's during that time that I have to keep

up the antenna or keep the focus to carry through on the goal. This journal helps me feel like I am accomplishing

some thing. But I know it's more of a way I calm myself down from my frustration and try and help myself

keep some perspective - so that I am not overwhelmed and taken off task. I am angry and frustrated - but

also encouraged for some reason. Right now I have free time, because it's my weekend (last day of it.) Better

to use that time to carefully guide myself to my goals. I am trying really hard. I think I will use my time

as best I can.