I don't feel so powerless today

I went to work this morning. I wasn't feeling very stabile, or good. I kept pushing myself though.

I finally thought of the idea that working through the discomfort and being committed to what you

do...THAT is work. I felt well because I stuck with it. Didn't feel so comfortable but I felt viable if that makes sense.

I realized my mind 'goes places' when I don't have a centered sense of self..it's like I slip and my mind tries to create

and equilibrium again by going to an extreme place. I realized better stay focused on the 'work through the discomfort idea'

and my mind was quieted. I realized it's real important to keep a sense of my mental ballast if that makes sense - centered enough to work through the discomfort.

I left work and noticed how things change for me once I set back to the world outside of work. "Work through the discomfort

out here too.' The world where I get to define myself. I came back home to the Board and Care and don't feel so at the whim of the folks here at the house - the manager or the others - So, along those lines it's in my power to choose what to do with the day (as crazy as that sounds) to chose how I work through the discomfort and I don't feel so commanded by the day.

I don't feel so powerless...