christmas in my mind

i don't want to be a downer, it was hard to focus on the positive at work. my focus was on the dissaray and mostly 

i didn't feel so great. I shrugged it off, or tried to... felt angry, tired, paranoid... and i just tried to create some Christmas in my mind.

i continued on - got home - and came back to the house where I tried to not let the pressures I brought with me to diseminate

onto my houes mates...again I shrugged off my stress and discomfort and just ate my lunch and went on to errands.

I bought myself the treat I had been thinking of - and I have been resting here in my room watching black and white movies

and now a Nature show. Things are alright.